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My Brain’s Been Playing Hide-and-Seek (and I Finally Found It!)

January 30th, 2025

Okay, let’s be real. For a long time, I felt like I was living in a world designed by someone else. A world where everyone else had the instruction manual, and mine was… well, let’s just say it was missing a few pages (and possibly written in a language I hadn’t learned yet). Things that seemed easy for others – focusing in meetings, remembering appointments, not losing my keys for the third time this week – felt like Herculean tasks for me. I chalked it up to being “scatterbrained” or “just not that organized.” Sound familiar?

Then, in 2022, something shifted. After completing my Bachelor’s degree (a feat I’m still incredibly proud of, considering the internal chaos!), I finally decided to explore what was going on inside my head. And that’s when I discovered the missing instruction manual: ADHD.

Getting diagnosed felt like a weight lifting off my shoulders. It wasn’t a magic cure, of course, but it was an explanation. Suddenly, all those seemingly random struggles clicked into place. The constant fidgeting? ADHD. The way my mind races a mile a minute? ADHD. The fact that I can start three projects and finish zero? You guessed it: ADHD.

This blog post isn’t about listing symptoms or giving medical advice (I’m definitely not qualified for that!). It’s about sharing my experience, connecting with others who might be going through something similar, and hopefully, demystifying ADHD a little bit.

For me, ADHD isn’t just about struggling to focus (though, let’s be honest, that’s a big part of it). It’s about the emotional rollercoaster, the constant feeling of being overwhelmed, the struggle to regulate my emotions, and the frustration of feeling like I’m constantly falling short of my own potential.

But here’s the thing: ADHD isn’t all bad. In fact, I’ve come to realize that some of my biggest strengths are actually connected to my ADHD brain. My ability to think outside the box? Probably ADHD. My boundless energy (when I can harness it, anyway)? Definitely ADHD. My passion for learning new things? You get the picture.

So, what’s next? Well, I’m still figuring things out. I’m learning strategies to manage my symptoms, exploring different coping mechanisms, and trying to embrace the unique way my brain works. It’s a journey, and I’m learning to be kinder to myself along the way.

If you’re reading this and thinking, “Hey, that sounds familiar!” then you’re not alone. Let’s connect! Share your experiences in the comments below. And if you suspect you might have ADHD, please, please, please talk to a healthcare professional. Getting a diagnosis was a game-changer for me, and it could be for you too.

This is just the beginning of my ADHD story. I’m excited to share more of my journey, the ups, the downs, and everything in between. Stay tuned!
The Weight Lifted: Learning to Prioritize My Well-being

January 28th, 2025
The past three years have been a profound period of self-discovery. I embarked on a journey of healing, navigating the complexities of friendship and learning to prioritize my own well-being.

For years, I yearned for deep connection, allowing vulnerability to guide my relationships. However, I soon found myself entangled in a cycle of spiritual and emotional chaos. I was constantly seeking validation and approval from others, allowing my emotions to dictate my decisions and leaving me susceptible to toxic behaviors.

I began to realize that I was placing an undue burden on my friendships. I sought counsel from my friends on matters that should have been addressed with my husband – issues like finances and marital trust. I prioritized their opinions over my own intuition and the guidance of God. This imbalance not only strained my marriage but also impacted other relationships, including those with the women I mentored.

As I sought to build new connections, I encountered roadblocks. Jealousy and competition often surfaced within the friendship, hindering my growth and creating unnecessary tension. I found myself constantly seeking approval and validation from my friends, allowing their opinions to dictate my choices instead of seeking guidance from God.

Through this challenging period, I learned some invaluable lessons. I learned that placing unrealistic expectations on others is not only unfair but also detrimental to my own happiness. I discovered the importance of setting healthy boundaries and communicating my needs with clarity and compassion. I also learned the profound power of forgiveness, both for myself and for others.

However, I also learned that sometimes, despite our best efforts, certain relationships simply cannot be salvaged. When toxic patterns persist and genuine change is absent, it becomes necessary to prioritize my own well-being and gracefully step away.

This journey has been a profound act of self-love. It has taught me the importance of:
- Prioritizing my relationship with God: Seeking guidance and strength from a higher power.
- Honoring my own needs and boundaries: Establishing healthy limits and asserting myself with confidence.
- Cultivating self-compassion: Forgiving myself for past mistakes and embracing my own growth.
- Finding joy in solitude: Appreciating my own company and cultivating inner peace.
This journey of healing has been far from easy, but it has ultimately led me to a deeper sense of peace and self-awareness. I am grateful for the lessons learned and the strength I have gained along the way.

Tag: chaos

My Brain’s Been Playing Hide-and-Seek (and I Finally Found It!)

The Weight Lifted: Learning to Prioritize My Well-being