The past three years have been a profound period of self-discovery. I embarked on a journey of healing, navigating the complexities of friendship and learning to prioritize my own well-being.

For years, I yearned for deep connection, allowing vulnerability to guide my relationships. However, I soon found myself entangled in a cycle of spiritual and emotional chaos. I was constantly seeking validation and approval from others, allowing my emotions to dictate my decisions and leaving me susceptible to toxic behaviors.

I began to realize that I was placing an undue burden on my friendships. I sought counsel from my friends on matters that should have been addressed with my husband – issues like finances and marital trust. I prioritized their opinions over my own intuition and the guidance of God. This imbalance not only strained my marriage but also impacted other relationships, including those with the women I mentored.

As I sought to build new connections, I encountered roadblocks. Jealousy and competition often surfaced within the friendship, hindering my growth and creating unnecessary tension. I found myself constantly seeking approval and validation from my friends, allowing their opinions to dictate my choices instead of seeking guidance from God.

Through this challenging period, I learned some invaluable lessons. I learned that placing unrealistic expectations on others is not only unfair but also detrimental to my own happiness. I discovered the importance of setting healthy boundaries and communicating my needs with clarity and compassion. I also learned the profound power of forgiveness, both for myself and for others.

However, I also learned that sometimes, despite our best efforts, certain relationships simply cannot be salvaged. When toxic patterns persist and genuine change is absent, it becomes necessary to prioritize my own well-being and gracefully step away.

This journey has been a profound act of self-love. It has taught me the importance of:

• Prioritizing my relationship with God: Seeking guidance and strength from a higher power.
• Honoring my own needs and boundaries: Establishing healthy limits and asserting myself with confidence.
• Cultivating self-compassion: Forgiving myself for past mistakes and embracing my own growth.
• Finding joy in solitude: Appreciating my own company and cultivating inner peace.

This journey of healing has been far from easy, but it has ultimately led me to a deeper sense of peace and self-awareness. I am grateful for the lessons learned and the strength I have gained along the way.